japa hapa in seoul

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

the inevitable downward spiral

The job has gone from bad to worse and i am really upset. I have a serious disliking for the manager and we had words on Friday. He said I was trying to be part of the team because I have been insisting that they fix up the crappy appliances at my place. The washing machine is useless and J(my boyfriend) has been doing my wash. He smiles and says he doesnt mind, but I don't know that I believe him. Yesterday he came by my place with an empty duffle bag and stuck all my dirty clothes inside and took them back to his place.
"service."
Still I wonder how long he will be sweet to me. Sometimes guys can be such jerks, but he is almost too good to be true, so maybe he is. The manager of my hogwon said I was unreasonable and acting "child-like" because I insisted that he get me a new washing machine and a new wardrobe. It's falling apart. I told him that if he wanted me to understand him as he always says that he must try to see things from my view too. He just started talking about something totally different and I walked out of his office. He came after me and talked very loud in front of staff and some students. I was humiliated. I had to go back into his office. What an ass! J says that I don't have to take his shit, but that I need to be carefull, too. He thinks the best plan would be to mess up at work and get fired. Like come late and be rude to the students so they complain. He says that if I quit, that the manager will not release me from my contract and that I won't be able to work untill next year. So, I hope some of you reaing this will advice me as to weather J's plan is a good one or not. I am scared.

Monday, May 08, 2006

I posted my last post on my boyfriend's blog by mistake!

Read my last post and just imagine how my boyfriend felt when I accidentally posted it on his blog. Ok, so we were drinking at his place and a little bit drunk. And I just logged into his blog by mistake and put in the entry. We just realized it this morning. He had this look on his face and his mouth moved but no words came out. Then he kind of chucled, smiled and said "But my mom reads my blog." Haha! We laughed and laughed. Sorry Baby!!!

I will not be quitting.

My boyfriend(Yes! He is my boyfriend now!^^) convinced me not to quit.Actually, he said go ahead and quit, but I would have to move into his apartment and be his maid/slave. He is so wierd sometimes. I wasn't sure if he was serious or not because sometimes I am not sure whether he is joking or not. I think you call it a dry sence of humor. We have been going out, or staying in, together every night for the past week. I think he really likes me. He is like, mid-30's though. But if everything stays good between us, that's all that matters right?

Thursday, May 04, 2006

I am seriously considering quitting on the tenth.

Well they won't fix my washing machine and won't buy me a new one. The stove top is rusty. The apartment is nice, but the stuff the school provided is shit. I should just quit on the tenth after I get paid. Plus they are so mean to me at work. "Please understand me" the director says and then won't fix my apartment. "You have to understand my situation" and then takes more money out of my paycheck. All they do is take and all I do is give. I'd rather go back to Winnetka.
The guy I met last weekend called. We went out for dinner and drinks. He made me eat dried squid. It was kinda good. It tasted like beef jerkey, or something. I think he wants to get close to me, but he didnt even touch me, so I don't know. I like him and we have fun together. It's nice being with someone who thinks the same way I do and genuinely laughs at my stupid jokes.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Things are up and things are down

I went out to a club Saturday night and met this guy. He was wearing these black knickers with Japanese letters on the side. I asked him if he knew what they meant and he said,

"You're special."
"Ah...........No. It means happiness."
"No. I meant that you are special."
Oh, God! It sounded like such a line, but the way he said it was so sincere. I asked him why, as I chuckled. He said I was different than everyone else in the room. I looked special. I dressed differently than the other people there and had my own style, not trendy but unique. He said I had poise and grace. He asked me if I was a dancer(actually, I took ballet for 15 years. Thanks Mom!). We talked for 10 minutes and he asked me to go get dinner because we were both hungry and it was hard to talk over the music. We talked until the next morning. We seemed to have so much in common. But he's like, almost 10 years older than I am. But he made me feel good about myself. He knew a lot about the job market and told me what to do if I wanted to quit my job. His advice was basicaly not to freak out. If you want to quit, do it the day after payday and have a place to crash set up. He suggested staying at a month to moth hotel-like place for college students, I forget what it's called. I gave him my number and told him about my blog, but he hasnt call me. Hey guy, what's up?!